Guilty but not

Not so good but better.  Well, I did not manage to stay off the computer like I said, but I did spend less time on it.  Why do I feel guilty when I don't answer people's comments.  They don't care if I "like" what they have said anymore than I do most of the time, but I am always afraid that if I ignore someone's post, they will think I am being rude.  I did decide that I am no longer going to feel guilty when I do not "share" something that says that if I don't share, I am an evil uncaring person--cause you know what, I'm  not.  In fact, I am doing people a favor because if I share everything that threatens me with evil if I don't, then  by not sharing, I am also saving my friends from the same fate.  I also am not going to be guilted into sharing something or I don't love God or I don't care about a soldier or I don't care about someone with a disease.I do, but this is called a newsfeed, not a guiltfeed.  On top of that, lots of these are just posts people have made to earn money because they are getting paid for every share.  From now on, if I share something it will be because it is pretty, or funny or I really feel like it will help someone if I share it-or "drum roll please"I just want to.  Instead of all these witless games I have been playing, I am going to try to find my ancestors-for what, I am not sure.  Certainly can't go back and meet them, but it is another way to waste time and sounds really good also.

Good-bye computer addiciton

Ha ha.  I'm posting in my blog today because I found it.  Pretty sad when a person like me who always wanted to write the great American novel, writes so seldom in her blog that she can't find it.  Happened into it backwards today so I am not even sure I can get back here tomorrow.  I spend entirely too much time on the computer doing totally stupid things and this is my first step towards STOPPING this ridiculous addiction.  Several years ago I quit playing all those inane games that required me to harvest nonexistent plants before they die and worry about spending fake money on fake snow to cover the fake farm because I realized how ridiculous the game was, and now I am equally addicted to playing computer card games to win points that are worthless.  This would be fine if all I did was a game or two a day, but I have gotten where I play dozens of games a day.  This seems relatively harmless.  I only play free games and I gamble only my satisfaction upon success, but for several weeks I have been realizing I was spending too much time on this and this weekend when my Mahjong froze up and I was freaking out because I might not get the gold medal-really just a newly lit up spot on the screen-this month, I realized I was addicted AGAIN-so this morning when everything worked again, I completed the challenges and then realized I need to quit.  I get up in the morning and turn on the computer.  I check my email, check Facebook and then go to the games.  I have things to do beside sit in a chair and push buttons.  I know this occurred when I was hurting so badly I needed to sit and rest my feet and legs, but as they improved, I sank deeper and deeper into the keyboard.  From now on, I will not allow myself to play games or waste aimless hours on the life sucking computer unless I have emptied at least one of the minions of boxes, written about something here- assuming I can find this blog again- and cleaned up something.  I am taking back my existence.  AND who knows. my electric bill may go down also.  In order to avoid temptation, I am even turning off the computer after I check my email.  Sooooo if you really need me to read an email, send it to my gmail account because that will come to my phone and I might hear it. Of course, if you still remember how, give me a call.  I will answer and have real communication.  By, I'm going to clean the kitchen floor and find a box to empty or a new one to fill or some wall paper to take down.